Firstly, I started this auction to help raise money for a 7 week old German Shepherd puppy that's in dire need of a surgery. The surgery will go though, but they still need the money to pay for it. I figured it'd help to advertise it here.

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Secondly...(and this part get's slightly personal and is a bit random since I haven't posted a journal here in such a long time...If you're not for a conversation on religion/spirituality you may want to avoid this part...Also, if you are very Christian you can do your best to convince me that Christianity is better than all other religions but you'll fail miserably if you end up saying the wrong thing...choose your words carefully now.)

So...

I've seriously had problems with Christianity for a while now. Not necessarily because certain people around me because most of my friends are Christian. My main problems with it are the hypocrisies with it and the people who feel that Christianity is the only right belief system. I do hold a bit of resentment towards it because I was (and still am even though I'm 20) forced to go to church. I don't understand what I'm supposed to fear about hell because no one can get their story straight about what's so scary about it. What is it? Is it fire? Absence of God? Demons? It can be all three, but no one speaks of it in that way.

Also I really disagree with a lot of what the church teaches. I believe in evolution because the idea that we were created magically from dirt doesn't makes sense to me. Plus the proof is there. Fossils and the like...I don't believe this whole thing that says that fossils were planted by the devil. Plus I don't think homosexuality is wrong or immoral. Love is love in my book. I'll admit that for a while my mom had me believing there was something wrong about it (though I never admitted that to anyone...but my friends picked up on it 'cause I'd never even read a shounen-ai manga (Gravitation to be exact)), but deep down, I didn't really believe it. I came to my own conclusion on the issue and me and my mom greatly disagree on this.

And the biggest reason that I have problems with Christianity is because more focus is placed on the doctrines than the spirituality. This doesn't seem right. It's built of the spiritual aspect yet when people speak of being Christian, they do nothing but quote the bible and say that this this and that is wrong and if you do believe in these things things then you're immoral.

So...behind my mother's back (I'm sure my dad doesn't really care for religion and wouldn't care if I didn't want to be Christian anymore...), I'm looking up different things. I'm trying to be more spiritual because I think it will help keep me grounded and help me out with my stress (the meditation aspect of it at least). Yet I'm still being forced to go to church and I wish she'd let me decide for my own what I want to believe in instead of trying to force stuff on me. I'd gladly let her let me speak one on one with someone in my church if they won't be judgmental about things and speak to me rationally. I've always wanted to hold a rational conversation with someone who's very religious and why they would care about what I believe...I'm sure that'll never happen.

For anyone who actually read that...kudos and you know know what goes on in my mind most of the time. X3

I would've put this on FA, but every time I bring up the subject of religion this one member always ends up talking about how childish religion is and I really hate that. I brought up how I was interested in some rather "out-there" topics and they said that I was trying to convert myself to some other belief (which was untrue), yet the spent their time trying to convert me to Atheism...I confronted them on that and the never responded yet they kept talking about how childish religion is...So I'll sparingly bring the topic up there...I'll try to avoid it.

Regardless of my feelings on religion, I don't like hearing people putting down the beliefs of others.